Wednesday, May 23, 2012

In the quiet

I wish that I had seen this while we were waiting for our referral.  I begged God to speak, to say something...anything!  I could not bare the quiet another moment.  Though I knew he was still with me, I needed to hear his voice to calm my anxious heart and give peace to my troubled mind.  And yet he remained silent.  It was dreadful.  But how beautiful was his voice the moment we heard.  We could not doubt it was him, we could not question for a moment that it was his plan. 

Within days of finally accepting that it could be another month before a decision might be made, we got an email.  Ironically after checking my email obsessivley day in and day out, word came while we were in DC getting our biometric fingerprints done.  We made it a family day and even went to the National Zoo.  What a wonderful day it was!  I was ok with the waiting.  Life had to continue on even in the quiet and the not knowing.

So when we arrived home I sat at the computer, curious about the days events on Facebook and what might be in my email today and to my surprise an email had come from our social worker.  We had a referral! 

Praise be to God for the way he works on us, to soften our hearts and for the timing of his plans!

Monday, May 7, 2012

Little Boys

I just shake my head and thank God I'm a girl!  Oh and that I have a working washing machine and a tub!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Rest for the Weary

Today we journey back into town for baseball practice and a little face time with the parents.  Chris’ folks are driving up from the Eastern Shore to have lunch with us and watch Ty’s little league practice.  I am finding much joy in my children when the to-do list is minimized and Chris has no homework.  It’s not that there is no pleasure in caring for my family, it’s just that sometimes the sheer responsibility and the mundane tasks overshadow the satisfaction and simple pleasure of being a mom. 

I am reminded of the command to take seriously the Sabbath, to rest and take delight in the Lord.  It isn’t that we don’t take time to worship or go to church, but taking time to rest from daily activities is near impossible with little children.  So how then do we heed this command to rest in the Lord?  Well on a daily basis, I set aside time after breakfast, with my no longer hot cup of coffee and read scripture.  We do Bible lessons together as part of our school time and each Wednesday we participate in our churches “family night”.  Though we go our separate ways according to age, we each get some study time and fellowship with other believers.  Yet somehow this is still not enough.  My body and soul yearn for rest; maybe they are yearning for more than rest, but yearning for The Burden Carrier, Christ.

So we escape.  For one weekend a month we load up our camper and pick-up truck and head out into the country. Just getting out the door or the unpacking later could make you question the whole value of the outing, but I guarantee that the price is well worth the investment.

What is it that your family does together to escape, unwind and reconnect with each other and with God?  I would love to hear your thoughts!

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Just a Moment

Well we loaded up our camper and took off down the road to the state park.  It is just a beautiful day!  Though I don’t know what tomorrow holds, today has been amazing.  I stood down at the lake, next to the little metal choo-choo and watched the kids run around, the sun shining and the wind blowing on my face and I could have cried.  I have felt so anxious and stressed that to feel that free was almost enough to bring tears to my eyes.  I wish you could have stood at my side friend, left your anxieties and problems at home and enjoyed the goodness of God’s glory in a much needed peaceful escape.  I don’t have to decide which home school curriculum to use next year or frantically check my email as we wait for word of our referral.  I can just enjoy my children playing, something I have not done in longer than I want to admit.

Thank you God for this moment, for your grace and your goodness that have made me feel whole again.  Thank you!