My heart feels ready and yet we wait. My heart grows discontent with God's timing. My heart desires what is does not have. My heart has yet to fully trust what God is doing behind the scenes. Everyday I pray for God's perfect timing and will and everyday I struggle that it is not my own.
When we say yes to the big things God calls us to I think we expect that they will happen very quickly. There is great need after all. The Gospel is to be preached, lived out, shared. Of course God wants that to happen now! Right?!
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, and your ways are not My ways." This is the LORD's declaration. "For as heaven is higher than earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts. For just as rain and snow fall from heaven and do not return there without saturating the earth and making it germinate and sprout, and providing seed to sow and food to eat, so My word that comes from My mouth will not return to Me empty, but it will accomplish what I please and will prosper in what I send it to do." Isaiah 55: 8-11
And so today as the many days before I pray that God's word not only prepare me, my family and the children to come, but that He do a work in my heart. Let me see with eyes that believe and a mind that trusts that God truly can do the impossible work of changing my heart, forgiving my sins and using my life to bring glory to Him. I pray also that whatever God has called you to or that you are waiting on Him for that He teach you to, "Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life."(Prov. 4:23) Only in Him can we have true contentment.